Mwhhh~~
I was searching on Wikipedia for tinnitus again.
Because it is killing my sleepy time. (=3)
And I was bored.
8-)And the doctors are waving the problem away.
'Professionals'
...yes my ass is even giving more answers
then those doctors. Yeah.And Wikipedia say's that
Ayumi Hamasaki has?/had? tinnitus too...
And
Phil Collins. And even
Vincent van Gogh had it!
I wonder how Ayu and Phil Collins life with it.
Or that they were lucky and the tinnitus disappeared after a while...
(Some people thought Vincent van Gogh cutted his ear off because of tinnitus!
So his advice would be useless (! ~)...but he's dead anyway.)
But no one in my environment has it. And no one understands it.
And that is
almost irritating me more then the tinnitus itself.
They don't know it is completely exhausting me. They see it, and they make
stupid and hurtful comments about it. But trying to understand the situation is too much work.
I can scream it of the roofs...but still they don't want to hear it.
'Don't be so dramatic!' Do they say then...
'I'm not dramatic, I just want to life without you screaming and pushing against my back!'
People are so dumb sometimes! But I guess everyone has that feeling sometimes.
I'm going to the doctor today. I didn't want to. I called my mother a few days ago about it.
She is really my biggest support with this.
I told her my left ear hurted really bad. She started to panic right away.
So we talked the thing over. And she adviced me to call the doctor, so he could check it. (I'm not really the type for calling the doctor right away, talking is gold and calling is expensive! =3)
Because i'm deaf at my right ear. And in the beginning it hurted very much too.
So i'm kinda screwed if this ear also becomes deaf.
So I made an appointment for today. It doesn't hurt that much anymore.
It was much worser yesterday, and those days before.
I have a cold too. So that made it worser.
But have nosespray for that. So the most pain is gone.
But 2 weeks ago my ear also hurted very bad.
And I didn't had a cold then. So I will hear it soon, if my 'good' ear has a infection or not.
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